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I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
Friday, July 15, 2005
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Towned today wif my mum. :D
School was pretty mundane today, nothing exciting happened. pfft. was looking forward to finally attending hockey training again, but it was cancelled due to the racial harmony day rehearsal in the afternoon. No idea why either.
Anyhow, decided to hitch up wif my mum and her two friends for a little much needed R&R. Pesky little sis was out wif her friends at holland so I was the only child/teenager. heh. Mum spoilt me, as she usually does when she's out wif me alone. had japanese food for lunch, then got my hair cut. 'tis is slightly different this time, but not by much. hur. went shopping and got new courtshoes and a pretty nice long sleeved white shirt for tomorrow, replacing the borrowed, pretty old ones from my cousins. also yielded 2 new fox tshirts and a black short sleeved shirt. :D
I love going out with my mummy alone! haha.
Disclaimer: The entry below was written in all honesty and with zero intentions of disrepecting anyone. The author sincerely apologises if anyone, anyone at all, feels disrepected after reading this entry.
The school's been ablazed wif rumours of a proposal made to the management level about the recreationalising of sports ccas. Apparently, our principal feels that we shouldn't send teams out for competitions unless we're ready for the sake of the school's reputation. Furthermore, he hopes to encourage a healthier studying culture within the school when people are less tied up wif trainings, competitions etc.
I understand where he's coming from, but I beg to differ. I believe that such a drastic measure is counterproductive and will not only backfire upon the school, but result in serious detriments. why?
Everyone knows that as a so-called "neighbourhood" jc, we don't have the star factor that attracts nationally ranked sportsmen/women to our college. However, it would be unreasonable to deprive students of exposure at the national level competitions simply because people feel that we can't win anything. Where's our confidence? our pride? Since when is being underdogs a reason for giving up? We will never improve if we're not exposed to competitions, for talent is one thing, while experience is another. Rome wasn't built in a day, thus it's unreasonable to expect miracles out of the sportsteams. Given all the hard work and dedication being put into such tournments, isn't it only right to applaud them, instead of slamming the door in their faces? No one wants to lose, everyone wants to win. But being such a young college, we face severe problems in such areas, simply because we don't have an identity...yet. More time has to be given, more encouragement and support. If we want to bring PJ to greater heights, we've got to work together. the students with the management, the teachers with the school.
Besides, must we only win to justify our existence? we all know that winning is important. But what have all the teachers and the coaches been drilling into us from day one? they've told us time and time again, that win or lose, as lose as we did our best, we will be able to hold our heads high. We must play not for medals or glory (though we crave for them) but for our love of the sport, and we play for the love of our team. Even if we must win, we have to walk before we can run, run before we can sprint, sprint before we can fly. Everything takes time.
Furthermore, if all the sports teams were turned into recreation sports, the sense of determination, the determination to excel will be lost. People will train with no purpose, no goal in mind. And sooner or later, people will stop training simply because training without a purpose is a waste of time. There's no competition to push yourself for excellence, no sense of purpose in your trainings. This, despite common misconceptions, WILL translate into other parts of life, like studies and work. Without the discipline of sports, many of us will find ourselves wandering aimlessly in life, lagging behind in studies because we don't have the discipline to will ourselves to mug.
Even if trainings were taken out of the school systems, it doesn't mean that students will turn to studies as an avenue to spend their time. On the contrary, without sports to vent the frusrations of a pressuring school life, students will either 1) give up or 2) turn to other avenues of escapism such as towning daily at best, and taking drugs or joining gangs at worst. The discipline of sports transcribes itself into other aspects of our lives, and for the most parts, benefits more than it hurts.
Maybe instead of turning us into a non-competitive sports college, more understanding, encouragement and support should be given to the sportsteams. Let us feel your love towards us, appreciate our passion for the sports and understand the difficulties of being a student-athlete. I mean, pioneer has always prided itself on being a caring and understanding college right? Hear us out now, before making your decisions. Don't look down upon us, just like other people do, when what we need most is your faith and trust in us. :(
pffft. headache now.
